Japanese Garden

August 23rd, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Japanese Garden in Auburn? Tak tau pun.. ahaha..! Auburn is where i lived when I Pict0205 1st came to australia to study. i stayed in Auburn Hospital Accommodation for 3 months before I moved to my new place in Lidcombe.

Last month, Hanan, from Malaysia came to study here in Health Science Faculty with me. Being the only malaysian malay student I know beside myself, we became close even before she arrived. her husband came with her for the 1st week, and we sent him off by the end of the week.

The coming week, Hanan got a place in Auburn too. I helped her move and spent the weekend with her. there, we visited a japanese garden I never knew was there before. After a whole year here in Pict0216Sydney, a newcomer showed me a place i didnt know! hah! anyhow,its a beautiful place. with geese and swans, ducks, ostriches, emus, wallabies, few Pict0202 Pict0200 other animals, and the plants arPict0217e just pretty. roses and sakura flowers filled the garden’s landscape, with its red poles and paved walkways, just pretty.

just have a look at the pics. of course, a picture is worth a thousand words!Pict0198

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Pict0235_1come on! click on the saakura flower to see a close up! dont be shy. im not asking you to look at ME! look at the flowers, girls!

Another Story to Share

August 13th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Yusuf Estees-An Ex-Christian Minister and preacher, ENTERING ISLAM… Posted by mindsett on 2006/8/7 0:39:38 (1844 reads) It is amazing..when we in a muslim country face the problems of murtad..more and more people from christian background are entering to Islam everyday..some of them are preachers, priests,scientists and etc.. Introduction My name is Yusuf Estes now, but in years past my friends used to call me Skip. I have preached Christianity and worked in the entertainment and music industry since I was a boy in the 1950’s. My father and I have established music stores, TV and radio programs and outdoor entertainment for fun (and profit). I was a music minister and even used a pony ride and entertained the children as "Skippy the Clown." Once, I have served as Delegate to the United Nations Peace Conference for Religious Leaders. Now I am a retired former Muslim Chaplain for United States Bureau of Prisons, Washington, DC. and I join alongside many American Muslims, working with Muslim student and youth organizations as well as schools for Muslim children. As such, I travel around the entire world lecturing and sharing the message of the Christ of the Quran in Islam. We hold dialogs and discussion groups with all faiths and enjoy the opportunity to work alongside rabbis, ministers, preachers and priests everywhere. Some of our work is in the institutional area, military, universities and prisons. Primarily our goal is to educate and communicate the correct message of Islam and who the Muslims really are. Although Islam has grown now to nearly tie Christianity as the largest of religions on earth, we see many of those who claim Islam as Muslims, that do not correctly understand nor properly represent the message of "Peace, Surrender and Obedience to God" [Arabic = 'Islam'] Dear me, I am afraid that I got a bit ahead of myself. I was trying to give a bit of background of our work perhaps to see if it would in anyway benefit those who may being going through what I experienced while trying to resolve some of the issues of Christianity. ________________________________________

How It Happened This may seem quite strange, while we perhaps may share a few different perspectives and concepts of God, Jesus, prophethood, sin and salvation. But you see, at one time I was in the same boat as many folks are today. Really, I was. Let me explain. Born A Strong Christian I was born into a very strong Christian family in the Midwest. Our family and their ancestors not only built the churches and schools across this land, but actually were the same ones who came here in the first place. While I was still in elementary we relocated in Houston, Texas in 1949 (I’m old). We attended church regularly and I was baptized at the age of 12 in Pasadena, Texas. As a teenager, I wanted to visit other churches to learn more of their teachings and beliefs. The Baptists, Methodists, Episcopalians, Charismatic movements, Nazarene, Church of Christ, Church of God, Church of God in Christ, Full Gospel, Agape, Catholic, Presbyterian and many more. I developed quite a thirst for the "Gospel" or as we say; "Good News." My research into religion did not stop with Christianity. Not at all. Hinduism, Judaism, Buddhism, Metaphysics, native American beliefs were all a part of my studies. Just about the only one that I did not look into seriously was "Islam". Why? Good question. Music Minister Anyway, I became very interested in different types of music, especially Gospel and Classical. Because my whole family was religious and musical it followed that I too would begin my studies in both areas. All this set me for the logical position of Music Minister in many of the churches that I became affiliated with over the years. I started teaching keyboard instruments in 1960 and by 1963 owned my own studios in Laurel, Maryland, called "Estes Music Studios." Business Projects In Texas, Oklahoma and Florida Over the next 30 years my father and I worked together in many business projects. We had entertainment programs, shows and attractions. We opened piano and organ stores all the way from Texas and Oklahoma to Florida. We had earned millions of dollars during those years, but could not find the peace of mind that can only come through knowing the truth and finding the real plan of salvation. I’m sure you have asked yourself the question; "Why did God create me?" or "What is it that God wants me to do?" or "Exactly who is God, anyway?" "Why do we believe in ‘original sin?" and "Why would the sons of Adam be forced to accept his ’sins’ and then as a result be punished forever." But if you asked anyone these questions, they would probably tell you that you have to believe without asking, or that it is a ‘mystery’ and you shouldn’t ask - "Just have faith, brother." Trinity Concept Strangely enough, the word "Trinity" is not in the Bible. And it has been a concern for religious scholars as early as 200 years after Jesus was raised up by Almighty God. I would ask preachers or ministers to give me some sort of an idea how ‘one’ could figure out to become ‘three’ or how God Himself, Who can do anything He Wills to do, cannot just forgive people’s sins, but rather and had to become a man, come down on earth, be a human, and then take on the sins of all people; keeping in mind that all along He is still God of the whole universe and does as He Wills to do, both in and outside of the universe as we know it. They never seemed to be able to come up with anything other than opinions or strange analogies. Father - Ordained Non-Denominational Minister My father was very active in supporting church work, especially church school programs. He became and ordained minister in the 1970s. He and his wife (my stepmother) knew many of the TV evangelists and preachers and even visited Oral Roberts and helped in the building of the "Prayer Tower" in Tulsa, OK. They also were strong supporters of Jimmy Swaggart, Jim and Tammy Fae Bakker, Jerry Fallwell, John Haggi and the biggest enemy to Islam in America, Pat Robertson. Distributing "Praise" Tapes for Jesus During the early 1980’s my Dad and his wife worked together and were most active in recording "Praise" tapes and distributing them for free to people in retirement homes, hospitals and homes for the elderly. We were really "winning souls to the Lord - for Jesus" day after day. Met A Man From Egypt It was early in 1991 when my father began doing business with a man from Egypt and told me that he wanted me to meet him. This idea appealed to me when I thought about the idea of having an international flavor. You know, the pyramids, sphinx, Nile River and all that. He Was A "Mozlem" Hijackers; Kidnappers; Bombers, Terrorists - and who knows what else? Then my father mentioned that this man was a ‘Moslem.’ First, I hated the idea of meeting an "infidel, hijacker, kidnapper, bomber, terrorist, non-believer." Any normal person would be repulsed at the idea. I couldn’t believe my ears. A ‘Moslem?’ No way! I reminded my dad of the various different things that we had heard about these people. Lies Against Muslims & Islam - They Told Us, Muslims:

• They don’t even believe in God

• They worship a black box in the desert.

• And They kiss the ground five times a day.

No Way! I Did Not Want to Meet Him! I did not want to meet this ‘Moslem’ man. No way! My father insisted that I meet him and reassured me that he was a very nice person. This was too much for me. Especially since the evangelists that we used to travel around with all hated Muslims and Islam very much. They even said things that were not true to make people afraid of Islam. So, why would I want anything to do with these people? Idea - "Change Him To Christian" Then an idea came to me, "We can change this man to Christian." So, I gave in and agreed to the meeting. But on my terms. Met Him With A Bible, Cross and Cap with "Jesus Is Lord!" on it. I agreed to meet him on a Sunday after church so we would be all prayed up and in good standing with the Lord. I would be carrying my Bible under my arm as usual. I would have my big shiny cross dangling and I would have on my cap which says: "Jesus is Lord" right across the front. My wife and two young daughters came along and we were ready for our first encounter with the ‘Moslems.’ Where Is He? When I came into the shop and asked my father where the ‘Moslem’ was, he pointed and said: "He’s right over there." I was confused. That couldn’t be the Moslem. No way. Turban & Beard? I’m looking for a huge man with flowing robes, a big turban on his head, a beard half way down his shirt and eyebrows that go all the way across his forehead with a sword or a bomb under his coat. No Turban - No Beard - [No Hair at All!] This man had no beard. In fact, he didn’t even have any hair on his head at all. He was nearly bald. Best of all, he was very pleasant with a warm welcome and handshake. This didn’t make sense. I thought they are terrorists and bombers. What is this all about? He Needs Jesus Never mind. I’ll get right to work on this guy. He needs to be ’saved’ in the ‘Name of Jesus’ and me and the Lord are going to do it.

Introduction & Interrogation

After a quick introduction, I asked him: "Do you believe in God?" He said: "Yes." - (Good!) Then I said: "Do you believe in Adam and Eve?" He said: "Yes." - (Very Good!) I said: "What about Abraham? You believe in him and how he tried to sacrifice his son for God?" He said: "Yes." - (Even better!) Then I asked: "What about Moses?" "Ten Commandments?" "Parting the Red Sea?" Again he said: "Yes." - (Better still!) Then: "What about the other prophets, David, Solomon and John the Baptist?" He said: "Yes." - (Great!) I asked: "Do you believe in the Bible?" Again, he said: "Yes." - (OK!) So, now it was time for the big question: "Do you believe in Jesus? That he was the Messiah (Christ) of God?" Again the said: "Yes." - (Fantastic!) Well now - "This was going to be easier than I had thought." He was just about ready to be baptized only he didn’t know it. And I was just the one to do it, too. Shocking Knowledge - Muslims Believe in the Bible? One day in the Spring of 1991, I came to know that the Muslims believed in the Bible. I was shocked. How could this be?

But that’s not all, they believe in Jesus as:

* A true messenger of God;

* Prophet of God;

* Miracle birth without human intervention;

* He was the ‘Christ’ or Messiah as predicted in the Bible;

* He is with God now and most important;

* He will be coming back in the Last Days to lead the believers against the ‘Antichrist.’

After "winning souls to the Lord for Jesus" day after day, this would be a big achievement for me, to catch one of these ‘Moslems’ and ‘convert’ him to Christianity. Cup of Tea - Discuss Beliefs I asked him if he liked tea and he said he did. So off we went to a little shop in the mall to sit and talk about my favorite subject: Beliefs. While we sat in that little coffee shop for hours talking (I did most of the talking) I came to know that he was very nice, quiet and even a bit shy. He listened attentively to every word that I had to say and did not interrupt even one time. I liked this man’s way and thought that he had definite potential to become a good Christian. - Little did I know the course of events about to unravel in front of my eyes. Agreed to Do Business First of all, I agreed with my father that we should do business with this man and even encouraged the idea of him traveling along with me on my business trips across the northern part of Texas. Day after day we would ride together and discuss various issues pertaining to different beliefs that people have. And along the way, I could of course interject some of my favorite radio programs of worship and praise to help bring the message to this poor individual. We talked about the concept of God; the meaning of life; the purpose of creation; the prophets and their mission and how God reveals His Will to mankind. We also shared a lot of personal experiences and ideas as well. Moved to Our Home One day I came to know that my friend Mohamed was going to move out of the home he have been sharing with a friend of his and was going to be living in the mosque for a time. I went to my dad and asked him if we could invite Mohamed to come out to our big home in the country and stay there with us. After all, he could share some of the work and some expenses and he would be right there when we were ready to go to out traveling around. My father agreed and Mohamed moved in. Continued Ministry & Preaching Of course I still would find time to visit my fellow preachers and evangelists around the state of Texas. One of them lived on the Texas — Mexico border and another lived near lived Oklahoma border. One preacher liked to a huge wooden cross that was bigger than a car. He would carry it over his shoulder and drag the bottom on the ground and go down the road or freeway hauling these two beams formed in the shape of a cross. People would stop their cars and come over to him and ask him what was going on and he would give them pamphlets and booklets on Christianity. Preacher Has Heart Attack One day my friend with the cross had a heart attack and had to go to the Veterans Hospital where he stayed for quite a long while. I used to visit him in the hospital several times a week and I would take Mohamed with me with the hopes that we could all share together in the subject of beliefs and religions. My friend was not very impressed and it was obvious that he did not want to know anything about Islam. Then one day a man who was sharing the room with my friend came rolling into the room in his wheelchair. I went to him and asked him his name and he said that it didn’t matter and when I asked him where he was from he said he was from the planet Jupiter. I thought about what he said and then began to wonder if I was in the cardiac ward or the mental ward. Man in Wheelchair - Needed the Lord I knew the man was lonely and depressed and needed someone in his life. So, I began to ‘witness’ to him about the Lord. I read to him out of the book of Jonah in the Old Testament. I shared the story of the prophet Jonah who had been sent by the Lord to call his people to the correct way. Jonah had left his people and escaped by boat to leave his city and head out to sea. A storm came up and the ship almost capsized and the people on board threw Jonah over the side of the ship. A whale came up to the surface and grabbed Jonah, swallowed him and then went down to the bottom of the sea, where he stayed for 3 days and 3 nights. Yet because of God’s Mercy, He caused the whale to rise to the surface and then spit Jonah out to return back home safely to his city of Nineveh. And the idea was that we can’t really run away from our problems because we always know what we have done. And what is more, God also always knows what we have done. Catholic Priest After sharing this story with the man in the wheel chair, he looked up and me and apologized. He told me he was sorry for his rude behavior and that he had experienced some real serious problems recently. Then he said that he wanted to confess something to me. And I said that I was not a Catholic priest and I don’t handle confessions. He replied back to me that he knew that. In fact, he said: "I am a Catholic priest." I was shocked. Here I had been trying to preach Christianity to a priest. What in the world was happening here? Priest in Latin America The priest began to share his story of being a missionary for the church for over 12 years to south and Central America and Mexico and even in New York’s ‘Hell’s Kitchen.’ When he was released from the hospital he needed a place to go to recover and rather than let him go to stay with a Catholic family, I told my dad that we should invite him to come out and live with us in the country along with our families and Mohamed. It was agreed by all that he would so, he moved out right away. Priests Must Study ISLAM? - YES! During the trip out to our home, I talked with the priest about some of the concepts of beliefs in Islam and to my surprise he agreed and then shared even more about this with me. I was shocked when he told me that Catholic priests actually study Islam and some even carry doctors degrees in this subject. This was all very enlightening to me. But there was still a lot more to come. Different Versions of the Bible After settling in, we all began to gather around the kitchen table after dinner every night to discuss religion. My father would bring his King James Version of the Bible, I would bring out my Revised Standard Version of the Bible, my wife had another version of the Bible (maybe something like Jimmy Swaggart’s ‘Good News For Modern Man." The priest of course, had the Catholic Bible which has 7 more books in it that the Protestant Bible. So we spent more time talking about which Bible was the right one or the most correct one, than we did trying to convince Mohamed about becoming a Christian. Quran Has Only ONE Version - In Arabic - And Still Exists At one point I recall asking him about the Quran and how many versions of it there were in the last 1,400 years. He told me that there was only ONE QURAN. And that it had never been changed. Yet he let me know that the Quran had been memorized by hundreds of thousands of people, in it’s entirety and were scattered about the earth in many different countries. Over the centuries since the Quran was revealed millions have memorized it completely and have taught it to others who have memorized it completely, from cover to cover, letter perfect without mistakes. Today, over 9 million Muslims have memorized the entire Quran from cover to cover. How Could This Be? This did not seem possible to me. After all, the original languages of the Bible have all been dead languages for centuries and the documents themselves have been lost in their originals for hundreds and thousands of years. So, how could it be that something like this could be so easy to preserve and to recite from cover to cover. Priest Goes to the Mosque Anyway, one day the priest asked the Mohamed if he might accompany him to the mosque to see what it was like there. They came back talking about their experience there and we could not wait to ask the priest what it was like and what all types of ceremonies they performed. He said they didn’t really ‘do’ anything. They just came and prayed and left. I said: "They left? Without any speeches or singing?" He said that was right. Priest Enters Islam! A few more days went by and the Catholic priest asked Mohamed if he might join him again for a trip to the mosque which they did. But this time it was different. They did not come back for a very long time. It became dark and we worried that something might have happened to them. Finally they arrived and when they came in the door I immediately recognized Mohamed, but who was this alongside of him? Someone wearing a white robe and a white cap. Hold on a minute! It was the priest. I said to him: "Pete? — Did you become a ‘Moslem?’ He said that he had entered into Islam that very day. THE PRIEST BECAME A MUSLIM!! What next? (You’ll see). My Wife Announces Her Islam! So, I went upstairs to think things over a bit and began to talk to my wife about the whole subject. She then told me that she too was going to enter into Islam, because she knew it was the truth. Shocked! I was really shocked now. I went downstairs and woke up Mohamed and asked him to come outside with me for a discussion. We walked and talked that whole night through. Truth Had Come! By the time he was ready to pray Fajr (the morning prayer of the Muslims) I knew that the truth had come at last and now it was up to me to do my part. I went out back behind my father’s house and found an old piece of plywood lying under an overhang and right there I put my head down on the ground facing the direction that the Muslims pray five times a day. Guide Me! O God! Guide Me! Now then in that position, with my body stretched out on the plywood and my head on the ground, I asked: "O God. If you are there, guide me, guide me." Sign Inside of Me And then after a while I raised up my head and I noticed something. No, I didn’t see birds or angels coming out of the sky nor did I hear voices or music, nor did I see bright lights and flashes. What I did notice was a change inside of me. I was aware now more than ever before that it was time for me to stop any lying and doing anything sneaky. It was time that I really work at being an honest and upright man. I knew now what I had to do. Wash Away the "OLD" So I went upstairs and took a shower with the distinct idea that I was ‘washing’ away the sinful old person that I had become over the years. And I was now coming into a new, fresh life. A life based on truth and proof. - And Become New! Around 11:00 A.M. that morning, I stood before two witnesses, one the ex-priest, formerly known as Father Peter Jacob’s, and the other Mohamed Abel Rehman and announced my ’shahadah’ (open testimony to the Oneness of God and the prophethood of Muhammad, peace be upon him). "I bear witness, there is no deity to worship, except Almighty Allah, alone and He has no partners and I bear witness that Mohammad is His messenger and servant." My Wife Was Next A few minutes later, my wife follow along and gave the same testimony. But hers was in front of 3 witnesses (me being the third). Then My Father My father was a bit more reserved on the subject and waited a few more months before he made his shahadah (public testimony). But he did finally commit to Islam and began offering prayers right along with me and the other Muslims in the local masjid (mosque). Children Too! The children were taken out of the Christian school and placed in Muslim schools. And now ten years later, they are memorizing much of the Quran and the teachings of Islam. Father’s Wife (Stepmother) Next My father’s wife finally acknowledged, before she died, that Jesus could not be a son of God and that he must have been a mighty prophet of God, but not God. She passed away within a few months of this statement at age 86. May Allah accept her statement of faith, ameen. Houseful of New Muslims - What’s Next? Now stop and think. A whole entire household of people from varying backgrounds and ethnic groups coming together in truth to learn how to know and worship the Creator and Sustainer of the Universe. Think. A Catholic priest; a minister of music and preacher of the Gospel; an ordained minister and builder of Christian schools; and the children, even a great-grandmother - they all come into Islam! His Mercy and Guidance Only by His Mercy were we all guided to see the real truth of Islam, by removing the coverings over our ears and the blinders on our eyes, no longer having seals over our hearts - He was Guiding us now. Amazing Story - Family and Friends Entering Islam - From One Man If I were to stop right here, I’m sure that you would have to admit that at least, this is an amazing story, right? After all, three religious leaders of three separate denominations all going into one very opposite belief at the same time and then soon after the rest of the household. More? - Yes! Baptist Seminary Student Reads Quran - Accepts Islam But that is not all. There is more! The same year, while I was in Grand Prairie, Texas (near Dallas) I met a Baptist seminary student from Tennessee named Joe, who also came to Islam after reading the Holy Quran while in BAPTIST SEMINARY COLLEGE! More? Yes. Catholic Priest Loves Islam - But Needs His Job! There are others as well. I recall the case of the Catholic priest in a college town who talked about the good things in Islam so much that I was forced to ask him why he didn’t enter Islam. He replied: "What? And loose my job?" - His name is Father John and we still pray for Allah to Guide Him. Another Catholic Priest Makes Shahadah The very next year I met a former Catholic priest who had been a missionary for 8 years in Africa. He learned about Islam while he was there and entered into Islam. He then changed his name to Omar and moved to Dallas Texas. Any more? Again - Yes! Orthodox Arch Bishop leaves church for Islam Two years later, while in San Antonio, Texas I was introduced to a former Arch Bishop of the Orthodox Church of Russia who learned about Islam and gave up his position to enter Islam. Daughter of Hindu Pundit (Religious Leader) - Accepts Islam - Helping thousands to Islam I met a woman in New York who wanted to make our CDs about "What Is Islam?" After giving her permission several years ago, I have learned she has produced and distributed over 600 thousand of these to the non-Muslims in America. May Allah reward her and keep her strong in her efforts, ameen. Hundreds - Thousands - Still Coming And since my own entrance into Islam and becoming a chaplain to the Muslims throughout the country and around the world, I have encountered many more individuals who were leaders, teachers and scholars in other religions who learned about Islam and entered into it. They came from Hindus, Jews, Catholics, Protestants, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Greek and Russian Orthodox, Coptic Christians from Egypt, non-denominational churches and even scientists who had been atheists. Why? Good question. The combination always seems to be the same; people are sincerely seeking the truth and are willing to put their different prejudices and biases out of their minds and begin to ask God for His Guidance in their lives. So, now you have the introduction to the story of my coming into Islam and becoming Muslim. There is more on the Internet about this story and there are more pictures there as well. Please take the time to visit it and then please take the time to email me and let us come together to share in all truths based on proofs for understanding our origins and our purpose and goals in this life and the Next Life. ________________________________________

Steps to Purify the Heart May I suggest to the seeker of truth do the following NINE STEPS to purification of the heart?

1. Clean - your mind, your heart & soul - remove all prejudices & biases.

2. Thank God - for what you have - every moment of every day.

3. Read - a good translation of the meaning of the Holy Quran in a language that they can understand best. (http://islamtomorrow.com/downloads/noblequran.exe)

4. Reflect on the meanings & consider the bounties of your Lord.

5. Seek - Forgiveness From God & Learn to Forgive others.

6. Ask - in your heart for Guidance from Above.

7. Open - your heart and mind.

8. Continue - to do this up for a few months. And be regular in it.

9. Avoid - the poison of evil while your heart is opening for the "rebirth of your soul." Remember: Clean; Thank; Read; Reflect - then: "Seek, and ye shall find. Ask, and it shall be given thee. Knock, and it shall be opened." Then: Continue & Avoid The rest is between you and the Almighty Lord of the Universe. If you truly love Him, then He already Knows it and He will deal with each of us according to our hearts. ________________________________________

ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS Now as I promised here are the answers to the questions many have asked me connected with my choice of Islam:

1. "How could you have turned your back on the perfect plan of salvation of Jesus Christ on the cross for you sins?" Answer: Your question implies you have not considered the similarities and teachings of the Bible and the Quran. "ISLAM" means - "Surrender, submit and obey your Lord in sincerity and peace." Whoever is trying to do this, is a "MUSLIM." If someone believes in Almighty God as One God and One Lord and wants to commit their life to serving Him and obeying His Commandments, then that person will be in the right way and they will be "saved" according to God’s Mercy. No one can take the sins of another and the guilty must stand accused for what they have done. It will be up to Almighty God to Forgive or Punish according to His Judgment on that Day. According to the remains of the translations of the Bible [see: "Bible, A Closer Look"] Jesus, peace be upon him, did not preach a message of salvation by worshipping him. This was something added later by Saul (who later became Paul). We find clear statements indicating salvation would come only through acknowledging Almighty God as One God and worshipping Him with all the heart, mind and strength. Jesus, peace be upon him, taught his followers to worship "My God and your God, My Lord and your Lord." Again, according to the remains of the English translation of the Bible, we see the one on the cross crying out a very blasphemous statement, "Eli! Eli! Lama sabachthani?" (Which being translated means, "My God! My God! Why have you forsaken me?") This statement on the cross clearly indicates the one on the cross is not pleased with the situation nor does he consider it right or just. Therefore, one would have to conclude this was not something Jesus approved of nor did he accept, or else someone else was on the cross in his place. Either way you look at it, the one on the cross did not accept this as a plan of salvation. The Quran is absolutely in agreement with these teachings and Muslims do worship the same God and Lord of Jesus, Moses, Abraham and Adam, peace be upon them all. The Quran states in many places, no one will be taken to task for the sins of another, nor can anyone carry the burden of another. We will all be on our own on that Day. And I ask Allah to have Mercy and Forgiveness for all those who believe in Him, ameen. I consider that I have not left the teachings of Jesus Christ, peace be upon him. On the contrary, I feel much closer to Jesus, peace be upon him, and I look forward to His return on earth more than ever before. Now I am worshipping the same God he worships and I serve the same Lord he serves, in the very same way he does. Jesus prayed to Almighty God and taught his followers to do the same. I am simply doing what he commanded to the best of my ability and ask Almighty God to accept it. 2. "Do you consider you were really "saved" and that you had in fact, been "born again?" Answer: The Baptists have a statement, "Once saved, always saved." I asked one of them about this and he agreed it was true. Then I mentioned at one time I had become a Baptist (in my teen years) but now I was a Muslim. I had also been "saved" and baptized at the age of 12. I had accepted the very statement of Jesus being the way, the light and the truth and no man coming on to the Father except by him. I understood these statements to mean I must follow Jesus and his teachings. Therefore, I read the Bible for myself and did not let others tell me what to think about what I was reading. The Bible states that Jesus prayed for salvation for himself in the garden of Gethsemane in this way, "Let this cup pass from me, even so, Thy Will be done." This prayer was repeated by Jesus, peace be upon him, a number of times and it is mentioned in more than one Gospel. Yet, according to Biblical accounts, the cup did not pass from him and his prayers were NOT ANSWERED. Islam teaches us his prayers were answered and he did not have to endure the cruel treatment and death on the cross, but rather he was taken up while still alive and is with Almighty God even now and ready to return in the Last Days to bring victory to the believers. Additionally, we find Jesus, peace be upon him, teaching his disciples to pray like this, "Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name, Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from all evil. For Thine is the Kingdom and the Power and Glory, forever and ever, ameen." Every Muslim I have met accepts every single word of this pray with the exception of calling "Allah" our "Father." Muslims consider it better to call on Almighty God by His Names, which we do consider to be "Hallowed." 3. "How did your family respond to your conversion?" Answer: This is always difficult for families to adjust to and it usually takes time. My family was no exception. Although my wife, children entered into Islam and eventually my father came to declare Islam to be the way of salvation for himself, still my own mother and many others in my family resented our going to Islam at first. Eventually, things became more normalized and we do stay in touch, although they are all still very much involved in Christianity. Allah promises to test those who declare their faith in Him with many types of difficulties and family is one of those mentioned as a test in the Quran. I do pray for them and ask Allah to guide them to the very best in this life and the very best in the Next Life. But it is up to Allah if He wants them to be in Submission to Him (Islam means, submission to Allah) or not. 4. "How about your congregation? What did they say?" Answer: I never had my own church. I was a music minister in the Church of God (Anderson, Indiana branch) in Texas and did my preaching to businessmen and informal gatherings. Those who knew me for the most part did not object and some even came to Islam, but there were a few who felt very upset and accused me of "Turing my back on Jesus, peace be upon him." No matter what I tried to say or do, these particular individuals would not listen nor did they want to learn anything about Islam. 5. "Did you experience a lot of difficulties in changing religions?" Answer: Certainly anyone who wants to consider Islam in these times, just as in times gone by, will have to recognize there will be certain difficulties and tests along the way. The followers of Jesus, peace be upon him, were highly criticized and persecuted even until death (read what Paul said he used to do to them in the Bible; Book of Acts of the Apostles). Those who followed Muhammad, peace be upon him, suffered at the hands of their very own tribes, yet they were determined to continue to worship Almighty God Alone, without partners and submit to His Will. The biggest problem with non-Muslims, is their lack of understanding and lack of knowledge as to what Islam is really all about and who the Muslims are supposed to be. I pray for them all and ask Allah to forgive the Muslims for not showing a better picture to everyone. 6. "Who was responsible for converting you?" Answer: As Muslims we believe that it is only Allah who guides the people and whoever He guides will not be misguided and whomever He lets go astray none will be able to guide them. As such, it means we don’t believe anyone really can "convert" someone else. Also, we accept that all children are born in the natural state of submission to Almighty God and as such that means they are Muslims. Should a child die he or she would go to Heaven as they are not responsible for what they do not understand. 7. "Don’t you ever think about coming back to being a Christian?" Answer: "Christian" indicates a follower of Christ. When Jesus, peace be upon him, returns to earth in the Last Days, all the Muslims will be obliged to follow him. But we would not call ourselves "Christians" anymore than he would. He never called himself or his companions "Christians." The Bible tells us they were never even called "Christians" until Paul was preaching his message in Antioch. 8. "Doesn’t it bother you to have left the way of peace, justice and love for a religion of hatred, violence and oppression toward women and others?" Answer: All the prophets, peace be upon them all, called the people to worship Almighty God as One God and One Lord. As such, those who did not want to submit to Almighty God would combat them and treat them with hostilities, even unto death, as Paul had done while still being a Pharisee. The prophets, peace be upon them all, did encourage their followers to live in peace and deal with people in justice and certainly love is the highest form of emotion a human can have for another human being. Yet at the same time, believers have to defend themselves, their families and the religion itself, lest those who are not believers should remove belief from the very face of the earth. Islam, like Christianity preaches a message of peace and tolerance - to a point. But when this is no longer possible without totally compromising and loosing one’s way of life and belief system, then there is no alternative except to engage in open combat against those who are combating against the believers. Jesus called upon his followers to sell their coats and buy swords. He explained that he did not come with peace, but rather a sword. He and his companions were engaged in mortal combat with their enemies, the Pharisees when one of the priests slaves had his ear cut by the sword. Jesus then told them to put down their swords. This is mentioned in the Bible. The word "sword" appears over 200 times in the Bible - but even though the Arabic language has more than a dozen words for sword, there is not a single occurrence of any of these words anywhere in the Quran. Combat is ordered in the Quran, only under very specific and limited conditions and it is nothing more than what we would today call "The War on Terrorism." Fighting against all acts of organized aggression, oppression, persecution and terrorism is an obligation on all believers. But it certainly has limits and women, children, elderly and any innocents are not to killed or injured during such occasions. Treatment of prisoners is not to be humiliating or torture of any kind. Even the dead of the enemy are to be buried with dignity and respect. ________________________________________

Now since writing my story and publishing here on the internet many other websites have picked up this story and it had become a famous example of how "Priest and Preachers Are Coming to Islam." Again, I thank you for visiting. And I thank our Christian friend for his email. If he hadn’t sent it, I probably would still not have completed this task of putting down the story once and for all of how my family, friends and myself all came to Islam. Please feel free to share this story with others. You should print it out and make copies for everyone. Give them our links, add our story to your website or blog page, and send out emails to everyone you know. Maybe it could make a difference for others like us, God Willing. May Allah guide you on your journey to all truth. Ameen. And May He open your heart and your mind to the reality of this world and the purpose of this life, ameen. Peace to you and Guidance from Allah the One Almighty God, Creator and Sustainer of all that exists. Your friend, Yusuf Estes Chaplain Yusuf Estes

Tudung antara aurat dan fesyen

August 10th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Oleh ZULKIFLEE BAKAR

Utusan Malaysia, 11 Ogos 2006

SEBAGAI orang Islam kita bangga melihat semakin ramai kaum wanita memakai jilbab atau tudung menutupi kepala mereka. Pelbagai ‘fesyen’ dapat dilihat.

Kewajipan memakai jilbab ini ditegaskan melalui firman Allah: Hai Nabi katakanlah kepada isteri-isterimu, anak-anak perempuanmu, dan isteri-isteri orang Mukmin, hendaklah mereka menutupi jilbab ke seluruh tubuh mereka. Yang demikian itu supaya mereka lebih mudah untuk dikenal, kerana itu mereka tidak diganggu. Dan Allah adalah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang. (Al-Ahzab: 59)

Sesungguhnya memakai jilbab bukan sahaja menunjukkan dengan jelas identiti seseorang wanita muslim tetapi juga mampu memelihara mereka daripada tatapan mata liar sehingga mereka tidak diganggu sekali gus memastikan kesucian mereka terpelihara.

Namun dalam keghairahan kaum wanita Islam memakai jilbab mereka juga harus memahami bahawa jilbab bukan sekadar pakaian menutup tubuh sahaja. Mereka juga harus memastikan ia benar-benar mematuhi syarat yang ditetapkan oleh Islam.

Syeikh Muhammad Nashiruddin Al-Albani dalam kitabnya, Jilbab Al-Mar’ah Al-Muslimah menyebutkan lapan syarat jilbab syarie iaitu:

- Menutup seluruh tubuh, kecuali muka dan telapak tangan.

- Bukan untuk tabarruj (bersolek) yang boleh menyebabkan pandangan mata tertuju kepadanya.

- Bahannya diperbuat daripada kain yang tebal dan tidak nipis.

- Kainnya longgar, tidak ketat dan tidak membentuk lekuk tubuh.

- Tidak diberi memakai minyak wangi seperti mana peringatan Rasulullah s.a.w.: Mana-mana wanita yang memakai wangi-wangian dan kemudian berjalan di hadapan orang ramai dan mereka menghidu baunya, maka dia adalah penzina.

- Tidak menyerupai pakaian lelaki.

- Tidak menyerupai pakaian orang-orang kafir.

- Bukan memakainya kerana untuk mencari populariti. Ia sesuai dengan peringatan Rasululullah melalui sabdanya: Barang siapa mengenakan pakaian untuk mencari populariti di dunia, nescaya Allah akan memakainya dengan pakaian kehinaan pada hari kiamat, kemudian membakarnya dengan api neraka.

Hakikatnya, mungkin ramai di antara kaum wanita muslim menganggap ia syarat yang agak berat apatah lagi kepada mereka yang ternyata sudah memakai jilbab tetapi melanggar syarat-syarat di atas.

Sesungguhnya, jika seseorang wanita itu berhasrat menjadi seorang muslimah syarat berkenaan tidaklah begitu sukar kerana dalam pelaksanaan syariat Islam tidak ada perkara yang sukar sebagai mana firman Allah: Allah menghendaki kemudahan bagimu, dan tidak menghendaki kesukaran bagimu. (Al-Baqarah: 185)

Atas sebab itu dalam soal menutup aurat ini, Rasulullah dengan tegas mengingatkan bahawa, Dua golongan ahli neraka yang belum pernah aku lihat ialah, satu golongan memegang cemeti seperti ekor lembu yang digunakan bagi memukul manusia dan satu golongan lagi wanita yang memakai pakaian tetapi telanjang dan melentuk badan juga kepalanya seperti bonggol unta yang tunduk. Mereka tidak masuk syurga dan tidak dapat mencium baunya walaupun bau syurga itu dapat dicium daripada jarak yang jauh.

Oleh itu, sekadar bertudung semata-mata kerana kehendak semasa bukan kerana kesedaran atas tanggungjawab sebagai seorang muslimah, masih belum mencukupi.

Kita tidak berhasrat mempertikaikan niat seseorang wanita yang memakai tudung tetapi sekadar ingin mengingatkan mereka bahawa tanggungjawab untuk menjadi muslimah sejati adalah satu perkara yang wajib dan amanah yang perlu dilaksanakan.

Bertudung tetapi melakukan banyak perkara yang dilarang Allah sudah pasti tidak bermakna.

Cubalah lihat sekeliling kita bagaimana sesetengah mereka yang berpakaian sedemikian tetapi tidak mencerminkan keperibadian muslimah sebenar.

Oleh itu apabila seseorang wanita Islam membuat keputusan memakai tudung atau berjilbab ia harus memastikan ia bukanlah sekadar satu hiasan lahiriah semata-mata.

Ia hakikatnya satu langkah ke arah untuk mewujudkan jati diri sebenarnya mereka sebagai muslimah. Janganlah sekadar memakai jilbab kalau solat dan ibadat lain masih ‘lintang pukang’.

Malahan mereka juga perlu membuang sifat-sifat tidak elok seperti meninggikan suara, mengumpat, mencampuri urusan peribadi orang lain dan suka melakukan perkara-perkara maksiat.

Inilah keadaan yang berlaku di sekeliling kita sekarang. Kita melihat ramai wanita Islam yang berjilbab tetapi sejauh manakah mereka memikirkan bahawa bertudung itu tidak semestinya menutup aurat.

Maksudnya, kepala sahaja bertudung tetapi mereka masih melakukan perkara-perkara yang bertentangan dengan Islam sama ada dari segi perbuatan dan tata cara berpakaian.

Allah menetapkan peraturan dalam soal menutup aurat dan mereka yang terlibat tidak harus mengatakan bahawa adalah hak mereka untuk menentukan haluan kehidupan mereka.

Kenyataan seumpama ini bertentangan dengan firman Allah yang bermaksud: Dan tidaklah harus bagi orang-orang yang beriman, lelaki dan perempuan - apabila Allah dan Rasul-Nya menetapkan keputusan mengenai sesuatu perkara - (tidaklah harus mereka) mempunyai hak memilih ketetapan sendiri mengenai urusan mereka. Dan sesiapa yang tidak taat kepada hukum Allah dan Rasul-Nya maka sesungguhnya ia telah sesat dengan kesesatan yang jelas nyata. (Al-Ahzab: 36)

Justeru selagi masa masih ada dan di saat Allah masih memberi kesempatan kepada kita untuk membentuk diri menjadi muslimah sejati maka rebutlah kesempatan yang suntuk ini.

Janganlah menganggap bahawa masa sentiasa ada untuk kita bertaubat dan kembali ke jalan Allah. Ingatlah kematian yang menjemput manusia tidak mengira umur, masa dan ketika.

p/s: sama-sama lah kita saling mengingatkan, termasuk diri azah sendiri …

juita in Sydney

July 13th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

After a hectic final exam and then going straight into deep research, I really needed a break. Lucky for me, my friend from kindergarten, until high school, came to visit me for the weekend. It was the best weekend I ever had since I stayed here alone. Thank you, Juita!!Abpict0007

Pict0009_2 So, if anyone of you would like to pay me a visit, please do so!! It would be my greatest pleasure to bring you around Sydney. Juita and I only had a whole day together, so it wasn’t much time to explore the real Sydney. If you would like to have a volunteer tour guide, and a free accommodation (that’s only if I know you, and you’re not in groups of more than 3, that is, female only :D please dont hesitate to drop me a line). I’ll be more than happy to take you around !!

To add the feeling, i’ll just show you Pict0031_2a few of our pics. Hopefully you’ll get some idea of a day’s worth of going around. Of course, the longer you stay, the more you can see. That’s me at the Flea Market at The Rocks, the oldest town in Sydney. It started as the route to the harbour. so its right next to the Circular Quay, Sydney’s main harbour where Sydney Opera House and Sydney Harbour Bridge are.

Pict0026 You can get on one of the ships, just to know how it feels to be ‘on’ a sailor ship, without going anywhere. its free of charge. unless you would like them to take you somewhere, you can just hang around with the smart looking sailors and take pictures - like me!

Pict0054 then, we can go to the Australian Outback Centre, where all the aboriginals’ stuff are placed for display and for sale - like that Didgeridoo i’m looking at there. Its a musical instrument, a traditional one, where you have to blow it to make a sound. If you watch the Amazing Race where the Hippies won, u’ll get an idea of how its used.

Pict0036 Here’s an example. This guy ‘dressed up’ in the aboriginal style, and played their didgeroo for tourists to see. more free performances are along the way, like magic show, ball juggling, musical instrument playing, mock up statues, and other interesting stuff.

If you’re really into adventure, you can try the Pict0042_2Bridge Climb. It costs you quite some fortune, but hey, how many times can you get a chance to climb a real bridge? That’s the Sydney Harbour Bridge I’m talking about. Can you see the small lines of people on top of the bridge? Can you? They are professionally conducted, takes about 3 1/2 hour, and you dont have to come for early training. they’ll put you in a proper safety suit, give some briefing, and off you go. They’ll take ur picture, and upon departure, u’ll get a certificate! ahaha!! reminds me of young school days when certificate really matters. haha. but yup, you’ll recieve your own BridgeClimb certificate for that. Interesting right?

Pict0098ab_1 At night, the only places open are the cafes, bars and pubs. Nothing much to see when it gets dark. So, for us, we just headed to the beach and set on the cold sand. Bondi Beach that was. We then went back to the Harbour and had some coffee. I had mocca, and Juita had Cappuccino. Im not really a coffee person, but that mocca really made a good impression on my lips! 

Well, so that’s it for the day. A good whole day. I wonder if it would be your turn to visit me here. I’ll take you around!!

Many thanks to Juita for making my day! Miss you dear!

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lets get into a little bit of Jazz

June 29th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Pict0073_1 Pict0043_1 Pict0015   What d’you reckon?  care for some late evening jazzy feeling? The stage is a boat stage, on the water, floating. its called Aquashell. Music was entertaining. Lights and colours are beautiful. And its free! what more can u ask for?Pict0069_1  Pict0046_1Pict0080_1

The Beautiful Confession

June 28th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Journey To Islam - Could I Deal with God Directly

Posted by: "amicuscuriae" amicus_curiae00@yahoo.com   amicus_curiae00

Tue Jun 20, 2006 4:02 am (PST)

Could I Deal with God Directly?
By Hayat Anne Collins Osman

I was raised in a religious Christian family. At that time, Americans were more religious than they are now—most families went to church every Sunday, for example. My parents were involved in the church community. We often had ministers (Protestant “priests”) in the house. My mother taught in Sunday school, and I helped her.
I must have been more religious than other children, although I don’t remember being so. For one birthday, my aunt gave me a Bible, and my sister a doll. Another time, I asked my parents for a prayer book, and I read it daily for many years.
When I was in junior high school (middle school), I attended a Bible study program for two years. Up to this point, I had read some parts of the Bible, but had not understood them very well. Now was my chance to learn. Unfortunately, we studied many passages in the Old and New Testaments that I found inexplicable, even bizarre.
For example, the Bible teaches an idea called Original Sin, which means that humans are all born sinful. I had a baby brother, and I knew that babies were not sinful.
The Bible has very strange and disturbing stories about Prophet Abraham and Prophet David, for example. I couldn’t understand how Prophets could behave the way the Bible says they did.
There were many, many other things that puzzled me about the Bible, but I didn’t ask questions. I was afraid to ask—I wanted to me known as a “good girl.”
Al-Hamdulillah, there was a boy who asked, and kept asking.
The most critical matter was the notion of Trinity. I couldn’t get it. How could God have three parts, one of which was human? Having studied Greek and Roman mythology at school, I thought the idea of the Trinity and powerful human saints very similar to the Greek and Roman ideas of having different so-called “gods” that were in charge of different aspects of life (Astaghfir-Ullah!). The boy who asked, asked many questions about Trinity, received many answers, and was never satisfied. Neither was I. Finally, our teacher, a University of Michigan Professor of Theology, told him to pray for faith.
I prayed.
When I was in high school, I secretly wanted to be a nun. I was drawn to the pattern of offering devotions at set times of day, of a life devoted entirely to God, and of dressing in a way that declared my religious lifestyle. An obstacle to this ambition, though, was that I wasn’t Catholic. I lived in a Midwestern town where Catholics were a distinct and unpopular minority! Furthermore, my protestant upbringing had instilled in me distaste for religious statuary, and a healthy disbelief that dead saints had the ability to help me.
In college, I continued to think and pray. Students often talk and argue about religion, and I heard many different ideas. Like Yusuf Islam, I studied the Eastern so-called religions: Buddhism, Confucianism, and Hinduism. No help there.
I met a Muslim from Libya, who told me a little about Islam and the Holy Qur’an. He told me that Islam is the modern, most up-to-date form of revealed religion. Because I thought of Africa and the Middle East as backwards places, I couldn’t see Islam as modern.
My family took this Libyan brother to a Christmas church service. The service was breathtakingly beautiful, but at the end, he asked, “Who made up this procedure? Who taught you when to stand and bow and kneel? Who taught you how to pray?” I told him about early Church history, but his question made me angry at first, and later made me think.
Had the people who designed the worship service really been qualified to do so? How had they known the form that worship should take? Had they had divine instruction?
I knew that I did not believe in many of the teachings of Christianity, but continued to attend church. When the congregation recited pieces I believed to be blasphemous, such as the Nicene Creed, I was silent—I didn’t recite them. I felt almost alien in church, almost a stranger.
A shocker! Someone very close to me, having dire marital problems, went to a curate of our church for advice. Taking advantage of her pain and self-loathing, he took her to a motel and seduced her.
Up to this point, I had not considered carefully the role of the clergy in Christian life. Now I had to. Most Christians believe that forgiveness comes through the “Holy Communion” service, and that an ordained priest or minister must conduct the service. No minister, no absolution.
I went to church again, and sat and looked at the ministers in front. They were no better than the congregation—some of them were worse. How could it be true that the agency of a man, of any human being, was necessary for communion with God? Why couldn’t I deal with God directly, and receive His absolution directly?
Soon after this, I found a translation of the meaning of the Qur’an in a bookstore, bought it, and started to read it. I read it, off and on, for eight years. During this time, I continued to investigate other religions.
I grew increasingly aware of and afraid of my sins. How could I know whether God would forgive me? I no longer believed that the Christian model, the Christian way of being forgiven, would work. My sins weighed heavily on me, and I didn’t know how to escape the burden of them. I longed for forgiveness. I read in the Qur’an,
“…Nearest among them in love to the Believers you will find those who say, ‘We are Christian’: Because amongst them are Men devoted to learning, and men who have renounced the world and are not arrogant.
“And when they listen to the revelation received by the Messenger, you will see their eyes overflowing with tears, for they recognize the truth. They pray, ‘Our Lord! We believe. Write us down among the witnesses.
[And what (reason) have we that we should not believe in Allah and in the truth that has come to us, while we earnestly desire that our Lord should cause us to enter with the good people?] (Al-Ma’idah 5:84)
I began to hope that Islam held the answer. How could I find out for sure?
I saw Muslims praying on the TV news, and knew that they had a special way of praying. I found a book (by a non-Muslim) that described it, and I tried to do it myself (I knew nothing of Taharah, and did not pray correctly). I prayed that way, secretly and alone, for several years.
Finally, about eight years after first buying my Qur’an, I read:
[This day have I perfected your religion for you, completed My favor for you, and chosen Islam as your religion.] (Al-Ma’idah 5:3)
I wept for joy, because I knew that, way back in time, before the creation of the Earth, Allah had written this Qur’an for me. Allah had known that Anne Collins, in Cheektowaga, NY, USA, would read this verse of the Qur’an in May 1986, and be saved.
Now, I knew that there were many things I had to learn, for example, how to pray properly, which the Qur’an does not describe in detail. The problem was that I didn’t know any Muslims.
Muslims are much more visible in the US now than they were then. I didn’t know where to find them. I found the phone number of the Islamic Society in the phone book, and dialed it, but when a man answered, I panicked and hung up. What was I going to say? How would they answer me? Would they be suspicious? Why would they want me, when they had each other and their Islam?
In the next couple of months, I called the mosque a number of times, and each time panicked and hung up. Finally, I did the cowardly thing: I wrote a letter asking for information. The kindly, patient brother at the mosque phoned me, and then started sending me pamphlets about Islam. I told him I wanted to be Muslim, but he told me, “Wait until your are sure.” It upset me that he told me to wait, but I knew he was right, that I had to be sure because, once I had accepted Islam, nothing would ever be the same again.
I became obsessed with Islam. I thought about it, day and night. On several occasions, I drove to the mosque (at that time, it was in an old converted house) and circled it many times, hoping to see a Muslim, wondering what it was like inside.
Finally, one day in early November 1986, as I was working in the kitchen, I suddenly knew, knew that I was Muslim. Still a coward, I sent the mosque a letter. It said, “I believe in Allah, the One True God, I believe that Muhammad was his Messenger, and I want to be counted among the witnesses.”
The brother called me on the phone the next day, and I said my shahadah* on the phone to him. He told me then that Allah had forgiven all my sins at that moment, and that I was as pure as a newborn baby.
I felt the burden of sin slip off my shoulders, and wept for joy. I slept little that night, weeping, and repeating Allah’s name. Forgiveness had been granted. Alhamdulillah.
*The statement a person makes when accepting Islam (and many times a day thereafter: I testify that there is no deity other than Allah, and I testify that Muhammad (SAAWS) was a Messenger of Allah.

re:connections

June 2nd, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Pict0037azah

Remember Christopher ReevePict0012_2? he played ‘Superman’ back during those days. he 172487577_c7b259ec14 fell from a horse and broke his spine. he ended up in a wheelchair, paralysed from neck and below. well, he started this Re:connections thing. his effort inspired the world to make this world a better place for paralysed people, and someday, to cure paralysis.

it is a blessing that i got a place in this forum, out of only 300 places :)

Pict0024 Re:Connections is about current state of reseach and support for Spinal Cord Individual. as you might realize by now, im working with paralysed people, who suffer spinal cord injury, mostly from the abdomen or legs down. they can still use thair hands to push the wheelchair for mobility. the research im doing is about developing an exercise machine for paraplegics - thats what you call people with paralysed legs - . maybe u would like to know that research has found evidence that paralysis can be cured someday. reseraches found that there is a possibility to regenerate stem cells, to rebuild the nervous cell. currently, the nervous cell cannot regenerate, and that’s why paralysed people will stay paralysed - because their nervous system cannot build themselves like our muscle tissue or bone tissue can.

during the whole day in Darling Harbour, we spent our day in sessions by the Pict0028_1 Ministry of Health and Medical Research of NSW. Big and very succesful people and researchers, including Spinal Cord Injured patients themselves, presented their work and support. participants were from all walks of life, incuding a little student like me :D ! most amazingly, people who are paralysed from the neck and below, unable to even move their hands are also there. they mobilize on highly equipped wheelchairs, supporting their neck for commands and controls. Its just amazing how spirited and participative they are.

I wish Malaysia would provide the same care and cure, or at least sufficient support for these people. its just another unfortunate disease, just like heart problem, kidney failure and cancer. but these diseases are extensively researched into, and supported, but not the spinal cord injury. nobody wants to get injured and have disease, and they cant even choose their disease, can they? its just not fair to be treated as a second class citizen in Malaysia if you suffer from paralysis.

Pict0031_1 paralysed people here drive their own cars, - one of my patients drive a good 4-wheel drive! they can easily access all the transportation and other facilities. They do not feel outsiders at all  - (at least, that’s what I think) - coz I can see they live a healthy and wonderful life. they have good jobs. one of my patients found his wife when he’s in a wheelchair, when he’s joining a wheelchair sports competition. how amazing is that! it just tells you that their Abpict0036_1 life is well treated. i just wish our country will achieve that standard someday soon.

okay, enough about what I feel. please make du’a for me that I will be able to change the world for the better, insyaAllah. thats what im studying for right now. i must say its a very demanding situation i am in, for an engineering student being in life sciences field, but im enjoying it. lets all hope for the better.. :)

Recipe: Pasta Sauce Malaysian Style

May 15th, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Okay, for a not so expert in kitchen like me, maybe u should be more sceptical about my recipe here. but hey, i’ve been learning fast since I lived alone here in OZ. having to cook every single meal, or else u’d starve of hunger or burn ur pocket money off, u have to make sure u have ur lunch / dinner cooked everytime u go out of home. so, one day, i found absolutely crap in my frigde, no idea what to cook!! here’s what i have in my fridge that day :-

- 1 piece of sausagePict0003

- leftover parsley (daun sup kot!)

- tomato paste (or u call it tomato puree back in Msia)

- santan

- beras dah habis, ada macaroni kering

- kiub ikan bilis maggi

- garlic (if u wanna try putting more onions - bawang merah ke, bawang besar ke, u can try, but i dont have any!)

that’s it. so, i decided to try out making a pasta sauce and boil the macaroni. we’ll have macaroni for lunch today. but there wz no cheese or any grated cheese whatsoever, .. so being creative, i tried experimenting something. i switched the cheese with santan. its still a milk product, isn’t it? it should have the same result. lets try..

ok, pardon my mixed language here. i cant decide .. ok, ill decide now. please pardon me. cakap bahasa melayu lah senang.

1. mula2 basuh macaroni, rebus.. kalau nak masak spaghetti pun bole, or any other pasta. nak guna mee pun bole, kalau berani mencuba. hha.. tapi azah guna macaroni la. tu je yg ada masa tu. lepas da rebus, toskan n bilas dgn air paip. takut panas sgt nnti melekat2. tak cantik.

2. panaskan kuali. bila dah panas, masukkan minyak sikit. pandai2 la bajet panas mana, masukkan bawang .. tumis la.. azah cuma ada bawang putih je masa tu. kalau ada bawang2 lain bole la letak. make sure tumbuk lumat2. sbb ni nak wat sos pasta.. kene smooth sume kalau nak jadi mcm sos betul.

3. letak kiub ikan bilis tu.. kalau nak letak ikan bilis tumbuk pun bole. tade masalah. janji tumbuk lumat. biar naik bau dulu. kacau2

4. bila dah naik bau, letak tomato puree tu. sini panggil tomato paste. kalau ratah tak sedap. nak kene masak baru jadi. lainla kalau sos tomato. ratah je pun bole. tapi ni utk masak, kan? letak byk2 sikit. kalau sikit tomato, sikit la sos tu. lagi byk tomato, lagi byk la sos yg dpt. pandai2 serasi kan dgn bawang n ikan bilis tadi. jgn over byk pulak.

5. dah letak tomato tu, bole la masukkan sosej yg dah cincang2 tu. tak payah tunggu sos mendidih. asalkan dah gaul semua rata2, jadi la. kalau malas nak cincang sosej. beli burger, potong2 sikit, pastu blender. kalau tak, beli je terus minced meat. tak tau la kalau mahal minced meat tu. rasanya mahal la sikit. mama azah dulu masak spaghetti sause guna burger cincang je. so, terpulang la kat korang nak guna apa utk inti. inti daging tu lebih kurang 2/3 drp sos tomato tu.

6. ok, tunggu mendidih, biar ada letup2 kecik2 kat sos tu.. maknanya dah bole letak daun sup. cincang2 daun sup tu awal2 halus2 dgn batang dia sekali. hmm.. daun sup ke? bau dia wangi.. daun sup la tu kan? ada lagi satu jenis, coriander nama dia panggil kat sini. pun bole guna jugak. kacau2…

7. last sekali, masukkan santan lebih kurang biar santan tu menutup permukaan sos dlm kuali tu. jgn sikit sgt, jgn byk sgt. ni nak kasi lemak, ganti rasa cheese. kalau hana (adik saya yg dietician tu..) baca ni, mesti dia soh ganti dgn skimmed milk. haha.. sori ye hana, ni nak sedap punya pasal. santan mmg kurang menyihatkan, tapi sekali sekala apa salahnya. :D

8. lepas masuk santan, jgn tunggu lama terus kacau2… sammpppai… mendidih. jgn biar tinggal santan tak berkacau. org kata nnti pecah minyak. entah la. tak try plak masa azah wat ni. kacau je sampai naik bau, sampai mendidih.

9. rasa la sikit. kalau rasa tak sampai, tambah garam secukup rasa. kalau nak tambah manis, letak la gula kalau nak seimbangkan rasa. ikut style mama azah masak, kalau masak apa2 at least letak sikit gula n garam , bagi balance.

dah siap!!!Pict0001 bole la letak sesenduk dua atas macaroni tadi. makan!!

flatmate azah kata azah ni mmg pandai eksperimen. kdg2 jadi, kdg2 tak jadi. yg ni jadi pulak. tu la nak share dgn korang ni. selamat mencuba!!

~im due shopping this weekend obviously!~

to the glorious dead…

May 1st, 2006 by azahhamzaid

Pict0213I sent a messPict0218age to my sister, telling her I was excited to go to Pict0285the city for an ANZAC Day parade one day, and she replied to me: " wah.. seronoknya dia!.. pelik tapi, masa kat msia tade pun excited nak pe gi perarakan hari merdeka!" hahha.. well.. she’s right.. in a way.. but i wasn’t actually excited to go see the parade.. the main reason was to dwell in the culture of the people here, as long as im doing nothing wrong, and to have a break from my restless schPict0059_1edule. it has been a month since i went out. Pict0289 Pict0039Pict0104

the weather was good. cold, cloudy day, but good. the best was the ‘feel’ of the day. everyone was dressed up in uniforms, with rows of war medals of themselves and their fathers’/grandfathers’ who had been to war. Pict0303

O yes, I should tell you what ANZAC Day is. its started when Australian and New Zealand Army Corps landed on ANZAC Cove in Gallipoli, Turkey on the 25th April 1915. This landing has been commamorated ever since in Australia, New Zealand and Turkey. (www.anzacday.biz). They even landed in Malaya, in Johor, Muar, Parit Sulong, etc.. where my family is fram, and seeing that banner with my ‘kampung’s name in the parade really touches me deep. i thought, "these are the people that helped us against the evil Japanese a long time ago"… I snapped a few more pictures of that particular troops. maybe i’ll show them to my grampa one day when i get back to malaysia.

Today, Pict0279there were no more soldiers left from the World War I, but a few from World War 2, some are already in wheelchair and cruthes. some move in army cars and trucks. i got a photo snap of a lady in the parade, wiping tears of her eyes with an old photograph of a soldier in her hands. probably her late husband who died in the war. flowers and cards were placed on the monuments, as a commemoration to the dead soldiers. young troops also joined the parade, as they are the future soldiers of the country.

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i went there with my flatmate, supanee. we bought a small australian flag each. going around the city full of australians, we really feel like Pict0021_1Pict0064atourists. we met a few ex-soldiers, 2 ladies from world war 2, and a dashing gentleman with 3 rows of medals - his, his father’s and his grandfather’s. haha.. that was clearly an enjoyable day.

Prof. Dr. Kamal Hassan , IIUM Ex-Rector, Said…

April 23rd, 2006 by azahhamzaid

DALAM satu pertemuan dengan Mingguan Malaysia baru-baru ini, Prof. Dr.Images1
Kamal Hassan sambil tersenyum mengakui beliau kini telah menemui dirinya yang sebenar.

  Ada riak gembira di sebalik kata-katanya. Jika boleh disamakan,
kegembiraan itu ibarat jasad yang mendapat rohnya semula.
  Dan semestinya Dr. Kamal mempunyai sebab tersendiri tentang perkara tersebut.
  "Saya tidak mahu jadi rektor. Dari dulu lagi saya tidak mahu. Sebab
saya tahu saya tidak mampu memberikan kepimpinan yang mempunyai
kecemerlangan menyeluruh.
  "Saya tahu kelemahan diri saya. Dan saya juga tahu, saya manusia
akademik. Manusia akademik mempunyai keterbatasannya," katanya kepada
wartawan SITI MARIAM MD. ZAIN dan jurugambar ZAKI JILAN ketika ditemui di
pejabatnya di Gombak, baru-baru ini.
  Justeru kehadiran tanggal 5 April lalu memang amat dinanti-nantikan.
Tarikh keramat itulah beliau secara rasminya melepaskan jawatan sebagai
Rektor Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM).
  Pelik. Jika orang lain berusaha untuk mengekalkan jawatan mereka, Dr.
Kamal sebaliknya. Tetapi itulah realiti diri beliau. Baginya tugas
rektor di sebuah universiti Islam antarabangsa memang cukup berat.
  Sebagai ahli akademik, anak kelahiran Kelantan ini tidak pernah
sedetik pun melupakan dunianya biarpun 15 tahun berlalu.
  Selain menjalankan kerja-kerja pengurusan sebagai rektor sejak tujuh
tahun lalu, beliau juga adalah bekas Timbalan Rektor (Akademik) di UIAM
selama lapan tahun.
  Tentang perasaannya kini, Dr. Kamal tanpa ragu-ragu berkata,
"Perasaan saya begitu lega kerana tidak lagi memikul beban dan tanggungjawab
yang sangat berat."
  Beliau lebih selesa kembali kepada dunia asalnya - sebagai tenaga
pengajar di UIAM.
  Menjawab tentang impiannya terhadap UIAM, katanya,
  "Di kalangan negara-negara Islam, nama UIAM sudah terkenal dan
mempunyai reputasi yang sangat baik. Tetapi UIAM belum lagi menjadi yang
terbaik di dunia. Itu impian saya."
  Apa perasaan Prof. sekarang?
  Bersyukur kepada Allah kerana mendapat kesempatan yang
ditunggu-tunggu sekian lama iaitu kembali ke lapangan akademik sepenuh masa. Saya kini tidak terlibat lagi dengan pentadbiran universiti yang begitu
mencabar dan memeningkan kepala (ketawa). Perasaan saya begitu lega kerana
tidak lagi memikul beban dan tanggungjawab yang berat dan berasa selesa
dapat menemui semula diri akademik saya.
  Pada Prof., tugas rektor merupakan satu tugas yang amat berat dan
mencabar?

  Memang. Sangat berat dan sangat mencabar. Sebab ini sebuah universiti
antarabangsa. UIAM juga sebuah universiti Islamik. Kedua-dua sifat ini
mempunyai implikasi yang sangat besar untuk menjadi antarabangsa.
Sebuah universiti memerlukan banyak perkara untuk merealisasikan tahap,
taraf dan kualiti antarabangsanya. Untuk menjadi Islamik juga memerlukan
kualiti dan sumber daya manusia serta komitmen yang sangat mencabar.
  Kalau boleh saya tambah, mungkin dalam bidang pengurusan lain,
seorang pengurus berasa bertanggungjawab hanya kepada kuasa di atasnya iaitu
manusia (ketua). Tetapi dalam pengurusan sebuah institusi Islamik, kita
harus berasa bertanggungjawab kepada Allah terlebih dahulu kemudian
baru manusia. Itu yang menjadikan ranjau begitu hebat. Ia menjadi lebih
mencabar apabila berlaku kontradiksi antara harapan manusia dengan apa
yang diharapkan Allah.
  Jika diberi pilihan selepas melalui pelbagai pengalaman yang mencabar
ini, adakah Prof. akan tetap memilih menjadi rektor?

  Saya tidak mahu jadi rektor. Dari dulu lagi saya tidak mahu. Sebab
saya tahu saya tidak mampu memberikan kepimpinan yang mempunyai
kecemerlangan menyeluruh. Saya tahu kelemahan diri saya. Dan saya juga tahu,
saya manusia akademik. Manusia akademik mempunyai keterbatasannya. Sebab
itu sewaktu saya menjadi timbalan rektor, saya pernah ditanya oleh
rektor ketika itu siapa yang sepatutnya menggantikan beliau? Saya sebut nama
orang lain yang saya fikir lebih mampu daripada saya. Dari luar negara
dan dalam negara. Saya tidak membayangkan bahawa saya akan menjadi
rektor.
  Apabila saya bertugas di Washington (Georgetown University) sebagai
pemegang kerusi Islam di Asia Tenggara, di akhir 1998, saya didatangi
oleh rektor pada waktu itu - Dr. Abdul Hamid Abu Sulayman mengatakan dia
ingin kembali ke Amerika Syarikat (AS) dan mencadangkan saya
menggantikannya. Saya kata, saya tidak akan menggantikan beliau. Saya tidak mahu berada dalam sepatunya kerana saya tahu tugasnya berat sedangkan
harapan semua pihak tinggi menggunung. Saya mencadangkan nama orang lain.
Bagi saya kalau orang ini jadi rektor, saya bersedia bekerja di bawahnya.
Saya sebagai pembantu okey, sebagai pemimpin, tidak okey (ketawa).
  Prof. kesal menerima pelantikan ini?
  Saya tidak menyesal sebab ini saya anggap telah ditakdirkan. Saya
menghadapi tanggungjawab ini dengan sebaik mungkin. Tetapi sebelum penggal
pertama, saya bertekad tidak mahu sambung. Saya memberitahu teman-teman
di UIAM dan presiden tentang ini. Tetapi apabila ia menjadi heboh
diketahui umum, pelbagai pihak menuntut supaya saya sambung lagi sepenggal.
Saya terpaksa akur dengan tekanan dan permintaan semua pihak waktu itu.
  Saya memberitahu, selepas penggal kedua, saya tidak akan sambung
penggal ketiga. Saya hendak pulang kepada pekerjaan akademik sepenuh masa.
Ini juga diketahui oleh teman-teman lalu mereka berusaha menyambung
tanpa pengetahuan saya lagi. Rupa-rupanya perkara ini sampai ke pengetahuan orang penting dan saya diminta untuk terus sambung bagi penggal ketiga. Saya tiada pilihan lain.
  Dalam penggal ketiga, saya kata, saya tidak akan dapat dipujuk untuk
meneruskan lagi tugas berat ini, saya tidak mahu lagi menjadi rektor.
Saya sebenarnya telah berjanji pada diri - pada umur 60 tahun, saya
mesti berhenti dari tugas pengurusan universiti. Tetapi hasrat saya itu
tidak dapat dipenuhi. Ditakdirkan Allah, 63 tahun setengah baru berakhir.
Justeru, segala permintaan, pujuk rayu, desakan, saya tolak dengan tegas.
  Bagaimana Prof. melihat produk UIAM?
  Saya membahagikan produk UIAM kepada lima jenis. Yang pertama, produk
dalam bentuk ilmu pengetahuan dan program- program pengajian akademik
berdasarkan kurikulum UIAM. Dalam hal ini, kami mengeluarkan produk yang
agak unik kerana ilmu pengetahuan yang kita hasilkan itu merupakan
gabungan antara ilmu yang relevan, keterampilan profesional yang diperlukan
dan nilai-nilai akhlak sebagaimana yang dituntut oleh Islam. Jadi produk-produk kami akan diwarnai metadologi gabungan ataupun integrasi antara tiga faktor tadi. Produk kedua ialah penulisan ilmiah dan penyelidikan. Dalam hal ini kita perlu peningkatan kerana 20 tahun dalam sejarah UIAM, kita lebih banyak menumpukan kepada aspek pengajaran. Sekarang, sejak tahun 2000, kita mula memberi perhatian lebih serius kepada aspek ini.
  Ketiga, kepakaran dan keterampilan staf akademik. Kita merasakan
masyarakat dan pasaran memerlukan kepada unsur-unsur ini. Keempat, ialah
kegiatan kemasyarakatan di kalangan mahasiswa dan juga para akademik
umpamanya seminar antarabangsa dan kegiatan kokurikulum para pelajar untuk
membantu memenuhi tuntutan masyarakat. Itu saya ingat di tahap biasa
tetapi boleh diperbaiki. Kelima, produk yang paling penting ialah
mahasiswa. Ini boleh dibahagikan kepada dua peringkat - siswazah dan
pascasiswazah. Secara keseluruhan, produk- produk UIAM mempunyai keunikan dari segi gabungan atau integrasi yang disebutkan tadi. Saya percaya pasaran
kerja memerlukan produk unik UIAM dan masyarakat serta umat Islam di
seluruh dunia boleh mendapat manfaat daripada produk-produk yang
dihasilkan. Alumni-alumni UIAM di Bosnia, Afrika, China dan Asia Tenggara
mendapat sanjungan yang tinggi dalam masyarakat masing-masing. Pertubuhan
Persidangan Islam (OIC) dan Bank Pembangunan Islam (IDB) juga
menghargai tenaga pengajar dan mahasiswa UIAM.Images2
  Sejauh mana Prof. fikir telah berjaya merealisasikan objektif UIAM ini dan apakah cabaran paling besar yang dihadapi?
  Universiti ini seperti sebuah kapal yang sedang menuju ke destinasi yang sangat jauh. Kalau kita berikan sejarah atau perjalanan UIAM kepada tiga tahap - penubuhan, pembangunan dan kematangan, kita berada di tahap kedua. Kesempurnaan itu belum tercapai. Dan kesempurnaan yang disebut dalam misi UIAM ialah dapat disimpulkan dalam tiga perkataan iaitu ‘Kecemerlangan Yang Menyeluruh´. Itu akan memerlukan masa yang lebih panjang.
  Justeru cabaran paling besar yang saya hadapi dalam merealisasikan
objektif ini dapat disimpulkan kepada lapan jenis. Cabaran pertama,
menukar set minda tempatan kepada antarabangsa - baik di kalangan mahasiswa
dan tenaga pentadbir. Kedua, menukar budaya kerja - daripada tidak
cemerlang kepada cemerlang dan antarabangsa. Ketiga, menukar penggunaan
bahasa Melayu kepada Inggeris dan Arab sebagai bahasa pengantar. Keempat,
menukar polarisasi perkauman kepada integrasi ummatik. Kelima, menukar
kesedaran bangsa kepada berumat secara universal.
  Keenam, cabaran mencari, mengekalkan dan menambah tenaga pengajar
akademik yang berkualiti. Ketujuh, cabaran mencari sumber kewangan yang
mencukupi sama ada dari dalam dan luar negara. Kelapan, cabaran
menghadapi persepsi birokrasi dan politik di luar UIAM yang menyulitkan kerana
kadang-kadang orang tidak mengetahui sejarah, misi, permasalahan dan
keutamaan UIAM. Yang paling besar ialah mencapai kecemerlangan menyeluruh.
Kecemerlangan dalam bidang akademik sahaja boleh kita capai.
Kecemerlangan dalam bidang fizikal boleh dicapai. Tetapi kita hendak juga
kecemerlangan rohani, sosial dan sebagainya.
  Prof. puas hati dengan apa yang dilakukan selama menjadi rektor?
  Secara umumnya, boleh dikatakan banyak perkara yang belum sempurna.
Oleh itu banyak yang saya belum dapat merasakan kepuasan. Saya bahagikan
ini kepada lapan tugas yang dapat kita lakukan. Kalau tugas pertama
iaitu pembangunan fizikal, pada umumnya saya berasa puas hati. Umpamanya
pembangunan kampus Gombak yang indah, berkat sumbangan dan sokongan
kerajaan sewaktu pimpinan Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad dan juga Datuk Seri
Abdullah Ahmad Badawi. Begitu juga pembangunan kampus di Kuantan dengan
bangunan fakulti perubatan yang begitu indah. Juga kemudahan sukan untuk
wanita di kampus ini. Tetapi saya amat tidak berasa puas dengan kedudukan pusat matrikulasi di Petaling Jaya yang sekarang ini mempunyai 6,000 pelajar - ia satu keadaan yang menimbulkan kesesakan dan boleh menjejaskan konsentrasi pembelajaran.
  Aspek kedua ialah integrasi. Dalam hal ini, banyak yang saya masih
tidak puas hati. Begitu juga integrasi akademik masih banyak yang perlu
dilakukan. Ketiga, saya ingin mengemukakan satu perkataan yang mungkin
dilihat pelik atau baru iaitu `Islamikasi´. Maksudnya, proses menjadikan
sesuatu itu Islamik. Jadi proses Islamikasi atau pengislamikasian ini
masih belum sempurna. Keempat ialah kewangan, saya amat tidak puas hati
sama ada dari luar ataupun dalam negara. Kelima, pembangunan minda dan
sahsiah pelajar. Dalam kes tertentu boleh dikatakan puas hati, katakan
10 peratus pelajar yang mencapai kecemerlangan memenuhi misi integrasi
dan keantarabangsaan UIAM. Yang 90 peratus lagi saya tidak puas hati.
Keenam, peningkatan tenaga akademik dari segi kualiti, jumlah dan
pelantikan dari luar negara. Ini juga saya amat tidak puas hati. Ketujuh,
penyelidikan. Kelapan, imej atau jenama UIAM, pun saya belum puas hati.
Ini satu masalah besar kerana umumnya orang menganggap universiti Islam ialah sebuah institusi yang memberi fokus kepada ilmu-ilmu agama sahaja. Persepsi ini perlu diubah.
  Jika ada kekesalan yang Prof. hadapi sebagai rektor, apakah kekesalan
itu?

  Saya kesal dengan sikap dan tindakan orang luar UIAM yang tidak mengerti keunikan misi UIAM. Dan orang luar ini termasuk orang awam, orang politik dan pegawai kerajaan. Kerana UIAM lahir pada 1983 dan orang kerajaan, orang parti, orang awam yang mengikuti perkembangan, mengetahui keunikan kami. Tetapi mereka yang kemudian, tidak memahaminya.
  Kedua, orang dalam UIAM, termasuk pelajar, tenaga akademik, pentadbir
yang tidak mahu melakukan perubahan-perubahan yang diperlukan untuk
mencapai mutu antarabangsa - UIAM menjadi sebuah universiti yang
betulbetul global atau glokal, untuk menjadi umatik, cemerlang, teladan tentang
kerahmatan dan keislahan Islam kepada dunia. Ini menimbulkan kekesalan.
Prof. telah berkhidmat selama 23 tahun dan akan terus menyambung
perkhidmatan. Apa yang dapat Prof. katakan tentang ini?

  Peluang untuk kembali kepada dunia akademik sepenuh masa merupakan
suatu lembaran baru yang menyegarkan kepada saya. Ibarat seorang yang
keluar dari bilik berhawa dingin yang tertutup kepada padang yang luas
dengan udara nyaman serta alam sekitar yang menghijau. Saya berdoa kepada
Allah semoga memberi saya peluang di penghujung hayat ini untuk menyumbang yang sebaik-baiknya di dunia dan akhirat.
  Apa antara pengalaman paling menggembirakan yang pernah Prof. lalui
selama ini?

  Apabila mendengar tentang pencapaian pelajar di arena antarabangsa.
Umpamanya dalam pertandingan debat. Tahun 2001, dalam Debat Bahasa
Inggeris Antarabangsa di Sydney, UIAM mengalahkan banyak universiti Barat
dan mendapat tempat ketujuh. Begitu juga dengan pencapaian kita dalam
satu perdebatan undang-undang antarabangsa di Washington D.C. tahun 2005.
Kita mengalahkan puluhan universiti AS dan Eropah untuk mendapat tempat
kedua.
  Pengalaman yang juga menggembirakan ialah waktu kampus ini secara
rasmi dibuka pada tahun 2001 oleh Tun Dr. Mahathir. Banyak orang tidak
tahu walaupun pada waktu itu kita sudah wujud kira-kira 16 tahun, tetapi
UIAM tidak pernah dirasmikan pembukaannya kerana kita berada di sebuah
kampus sementara di PJ yang kawasannya kita sewa daripada pihak lain.
  Pengalaman paling pahit?
  Waktu saya memangku sebagai rektor, saya tidak diberitahu UIAM pada
1997/98, mengalami defisit sebanyak RM37 juta. Mungkin kalau diberitahu,
saya tidak akan menjadi rektor (senyum). Saya tidak mahu terima sebab
hutang atas bahu saya. Apabila saya menjadi rektor baru orang beritahu.
  Jadi ini pengalaman yang paling pahit (ketawa) - susah nak tidur bila
memikirkannya. Jadi terpaksalah saya berjumpa dengan Menteri Kewangan
ketika itu - Tun Daim Zainuddin, Pak Lah, Datuk Mustapa Mohamed
(Pengerusi MTEN) untuk menyuarakan masalah ini. Kedua, peristiwa tsunami
menyebabkan kematian beberapa pelajar kami dari Aceh dan Sri Lanka.
  Kenangan yang tidak dapat dilupakan?
  Saya mendapat undangan daripada Menteri Haji Arab Saudi untuk
menghadiri seminar antarabangsa di Mekah yang kemudian berpindah ke Mina. Di
Mina, saya diberitahu bahawa Amir Abdullah (Raja Muda) yang sekarang ini
Raja Arab Saudi akan hadir dan saya ditugaskan menyampaikan ucapan
dalam bahasa Arab bagi pihak semua delegasi. Saya tertanya-tanya kenapa
saya. Ramai lagi orang lain. Itu yang paling mencemaskan. Alhamdulillah,
saya dapat memberikan ucapan itu walaupun dengan perasaan yang
berdebar-debar. Rasa macam nak pengsan waktu itu (ketawa). Juga kenangan ketika berada dalam kaabah. Saya tenggelam dengan air mata. Rasa macam dalam mimpi.
Keputusan paling sukar pernah diambil?
  Saya terpaksa sambung kerja sebagai rektor (ketawa). Apabila mendapat
tekanan dari dalam dan luar, saya terpaksa akur.
  Cara Prof. berdepan dengan masalah?
  Tempat saya bergantung pertamanya kepada Allah. Kedua kepada manusia.
Saya akan menyuarakan masalah saya kepada Allah. Selepas solat, saya
akan bermunajat. Kadang-kadang sewaktu ke Mekah, sama ada buat umrah,
haji ataupun seminar, di depan Kaabah, saya mencurahkan perasaan memohon
bantuan Allah sebab saya tahu saya manusia kerdil, banyak kelemahan,
ketidakmampuan dan keterbatasan.
  Sekiranya ada impian yang belum tertunai, apakah impian tersebut?
  Agar UIAM menjadi satu-satunya tempat rujukan atau pusat antarabangsa
serta tempatan bagi ilmu pengetahuan dan penyelesaian bersepadu selain
UIAM menjadi universiti Islamik yang terbaik di dunia.
  Apa makna kegembiraan bagi Prof.?
  Kegembiraan yang hakiki ialah mendapat keredaan Allah. Biarpun
manusia tidak suka, tidak merestui, tidak menghargainya, tetapi kalau sesuatu
itu mendapat keredaan Allah, itulah makna kegembiraan bagi saya.
  Harapan kepada rektor yang baru?
Images3  Supaya individu yang dilantik menjadi rektor nanti mestilah anak
tempatan yang berwawasan global. UIAM pada saat ini tidak mungkin dapat menerima seorang rektor yang bukan orang Malaysia. Kerana sudah terbukti bahawa orang Malaysia boleh memimpin universiti ini. Dan kedua, orang yang bukan rakyat tempatan sukar memahami keadaan, jangkaan, peraturan,
undangundang dan dasar negara ini. Orang luar biasanya juga tidak kekal di sini. Mereka datang hanya sementara dan kemudian akan ke tempat lain. Kadang-kadang hanya menjadikan UIAM sekadar tempat persinggahan atau batu loncatan sahaja.
  Sukar untuk kita mencari orang luar yang mahu bekerja kekal di sini selain faham polisi kerajaan dengan baik dan boleh berinteraksi dalam bahasa kita dengan baik. Sebab itu saya kata bahawa komuniti UIAM tidak dapat menerima orang luar. Kita mengharapkan anak Malaysia yang Muslim, berwatak global dan mengetahui sejarah, menghayati misi UIAM dan telah berada di UAIM sekian lama selain memahami aspirasi dan dasar-dasar kerajaan. Syarat utama ialah kesetiaan kepada misi UIAM dan ikhlas bekerja untuk kepentingan universiti bukan kepentingan diri.